Monday, August 18, 2014

My World is Small

Hey Mom,

Went to Talia's show last week - her last one before she leaves for ONU. She did very well. It was a production of the muscial 9 to 5 - she was Violet. One of the Valley's community newsletters did a write up for the show, but surprisingly, it was mostly about Talia. She must have a fan there. Here, look:



Before the show, I met Neal for dinner at a restaurant at the Northridge Mall.  I got there early, so walked around a bit.  Boy has that mall changed!  I have only seen it from the outside for the past 15 or so years and knew things had changed inside, but it is very different.  I also realized that I recognized only a handful of stores inside.

I was thinking - when was the last time I actually strolled through a mall?  I checked out the Mall of American when MLA was in Minnesota, but that was 3 years ago and I don't even remember the time before that.  There were a couple of times when I needed a specific store at a mall - but I went to them directly.  So, my shopping consists of Costco, grocery store, and occasionally Target.  The mall made me feel old and out of touch.  My typical shopping pattern - or at least thinking of it - made me feel that my world was very small.  As I thought of the rest of my life, my entire world felt small. It took me a while to figure out what made me feel that way Shopping was just one aspect of that, but I'm not much of a shopper, so it is not the shopping. I think it was the out-of-touch feel of not recognizing the current "pop culture" or trends that were there.  But it was an odd realization to feel so out of place,and out of time.  I know, easy to say, change it if you don't like that.  However, I'm not ready to do that quite yet.  It is very hard for an introvert to do that and I just don't have the energy (or the desire yet) to make that change.

My world was a little bigger when you were here, sure wish you were still here.

Its just me.

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